need to be occupied and theres nobody here....

oh.. yeah- my tickets to spain arrived in the post this morning.... so i guess thats good- even though i dont want to go anymore....(well till i set off)
spoke to phil earlier... which helped a little...
gonna go wash my hair in around 10 mins and head up to prayers...

i dunno.. i just wasnt expecting any of this...

i dont think i can say anymore now...
i dont know whether to laugh or to cry or to talk or to just be quiet, to be with people or to hide away....

a lot of people reading this may well think that i should just shut up and get on with things as nothing is certain.... if that is your opinoin then i would love to set you straight on a few things...
maybe i am overreacting, maybe im not, at the moment im just writing, because i feel numb.

well, after a palava to get to work after the dovtors (ended up spending 11 quid on a taxi) work was okay- the kids were really unruly and stuff but, were kinda happy enough...

so yeah... the doctors well... i got there, signed in and everything and was taken to the nurses office - it was a different nurse this time round who was mega efficient and mega nice, and she had everythign ready- and i sat down and while she was checking which vein to puncture i noticed that there were 4 tubes out there for collecting the blood... knowing that only one is needed for an iron count i asked what they were testing... she didnt give me any bullshite but said that they were going to do a full blood count, iron count and then testing my auto-immune system, as the last tests they did the results were abnormally high, and if that is still the case in a week or so, im to be admitted back to the hospital.

from what i remember from various science stuff... there are two ways in which the immune system breaks - the first way is that it stops working, which then means that the immune system is then unable to combat disease, the second is that your immune system can go into overdrive, or turn on itself, which then means that the body produces antibodies against itself and destroys healthy tissue etc...

so yeah... im to ring back for results in just over a week...
i wont say im not scared, and i wont say that im not nervous, because i know what this could mean. i also know however, that the results may be back to normal.

more than anything at the moment i feel uneasy. I was speaking to Abbie earlier today- gave her a ring- shed had an appointment for a blood test at the same time as me- (also random... both tests really hurt for once in a long time... both of us have a fantastic bruise which is also uncommon... ) she was being helpful, but at the moment, we're both in the pooh with one thing or another medically, and so are great for sympathising with each other, but because of the distance cant do anything to help. the thing that ive struggled with the most over the last year or so since this began is not knowing and having to wait. im not an impatient person by any means (am i?) but this is something i cant just leave and say it has no effect whether i worry or not..... plus it isnt just something that i /can/ leave alone- it doesnt go away.

im ranting on slightly i know but.... ack i dont know...
any ideas?

well, i was gonna post this morning but my inet was down...
im at my paretns house at the moment, and will arrive at the doctors in around 5 minutes for yey more tests... ugh...
so this will be a quick post. today im gonna do some work and stuff...
must go now though... yey,... :( :(

anyone around feel free to talk to me...

it seems that so many people are falling apart around me, and i am powerless to do anything.... and for me, that is one of the worst things i can experience.
my nature is empathic and when this happens, all i can do is feel what my friends are going through but knowing i cannot do anything hurts.
in the midst of the sorrow, the pain, the confusion, the despair, the hypocrisy, the doubt, the fear, all i can do is love. but im not sure that is enough.

one thing that struck me about today, was when i was at hillsborough- we were setting up, and i saw a couple of the kids id looked after over easter at the playscheme, and they all ran up to me and waved and said hi etc, and a few minutes later one of the girls came back with 2 people and said "this is my friend Sara- she taught me cats cradle" and introduced her friends to me... and then a few minutes later o=ne of the boys came in- saw me, and screamed my name, ran up to me and gave me a huge hug, and took hold of the parachute next to me and behaved himself immacuately...
it really made me think about impressions you give people- i spent 6 hours with these kids one day in their holiday, and not only did they recognise me- they remembered my name, and were really positive about that day, as well as behaving really well... i didnt treat them differently, or give them special attention or anything like that- i respected them, and tried to be nice (but firm) and not to patronise them.
i didnt expect anything like that to happen, and that was really encouraging, and im just thinking at the moment, about why the approach i had with these kids (pretty much the same as i have with anyone) is usually a lot more unsuccessful than that... i know there is a lot of psychology which could be applied here .. but i dont mean that...

at the moment i feel really drained... had three very intense conversations with different people over the last couple of days and im all out of answers i think. that added to some very indepth and complicated thinking about stuff on my part, that whilst its been quite revalatory, has been very hard, and also just generally having a stretching time at the moment, which isnt necessarily a bad thing, but its not the most pleasant either...

to be perfectly honest i actually feel quite low right now... some of that is tiredness i know that- i can tell he difference between consequential and genuine.. and its not all tiredness.. im not entirely sure why as well which doesnt help matters... all i can do at the moment is trust that things will be okay. and thats very hard given past experience.

i think the word of yesterday was 'bizzare'- im not sure why... but it was.... hmph- now im not going to say it...
had a very interesting day today- dropped my guitar into church before work, where i was working at lunchtime at hillsborough primary, and afterschool at pipworth juniors on the manor. I was slightly apprehensive about the prospect of 15-20 10 year olds armed with badminton rackets... but it was okay.

from there i had a large dash to get to stomp from pipworth school, so pegged it for a 93, jumped off onto a tram at hyde park, and arrived only 2 minutes later than normal at stomp.
I thought we had a very good stomp despite the girls losing all their balloons... and the fact that i was the one to burst the last one, (for which ill be hated for all eternity no doubt).
im not sure that anything i said in the talk made any sense whatsoever, or that i was even coherent, but the songs were fantastic tonight in my opinion...

now im back, some things to munchety crunchety over from the last few days, and i also need to write my abstract for my 'bible and the literary imagination' module which is due in tomorrow, i think i finally know what i want to do for it...
im going to do a character study in detail on one person but i'd also like to look at the way they interact, and the roles of the other people of the story- but i dont have a story yet- it can be anything in the whole bible.... anyone got any ideas as to which??? id just like to say that i am NOT going to be looking at any of the penteteuch, song of songs, or any of the new testament other than the gospels and acts, so suggestions other than those are out.

ive got a couple of bees in my bonnet at the moment... need to thrash them out i think... but first i think i need to go and buy some tea as that would be useful in my quest for work- i need the sugar!

nice to see occasional use of the comments box on here now by the way....

sara

okay, well this post is going into notepad now and blogger later as my inet is being stupid and dan is asleep on the sofa downstairs so i dont want to wake him up.
im going to sleep in a minute or two myself- xept now it is working again so ill just finish in here and then copy and paste in there....
london was good... i remembered everything, paul was out of his extra tutorial in plenty of time, we sorted our seats got there, didnt get too lost, went found the place we were headed... found the huge forbidden planet round the corner... got back, enjoyed ourselves at the studios, got to see goldfrapp as part of the deal... got a black cab in london :D got back to the station, and paul and i got ourselves thai chili chicken noodles, me green him red, which was very nice... listened to some teaching on prophecy- both academic ie read some lecture notes and not so academic ie listened to a couple of sermons...and then went to sleep from leicester to sheffield... upon waking up i have very blurry vision in one eye which hasnt gone yet, so im hoping that its just due to beign tired, and will be gone in the morning when i get up...

had a very interesting lecture today- at least i thought so, all about the site at Qumr'an and the Dead Sea Scrolls, and how a combination of the archaeological remains and the paleography of the scrolls can tell us a lot about the commuunity that lived there, and then by crossreferening that information with external sources- Josephus, Pliny the Elder etc, we can make a slightly more educated guess about who actually loived there, and whether or not they were responsible for a;; the texts etc...
then got into an interesting debate about the contents of the scrolls, which i really am not convinced on as an argument... all kinds of conspiracy theories being raised as well as lots of claims that none of the texts dating to the Common Era are talking about Jesus.. i'd be more willing to accept the argument if there was anything given to support it but there wasnt...
as for the conclusion that the community was Essene, fair enough but then, someone raised the valid point that there is a theory that John the Baptist had close links with the Essene community so would it be a possibility that there are parabiblical texts contained within the Dead Sea Scrolls, which contain some of his teachings, which was rubbished by the lecturer- i was pretty sure that that was a valid scholarly theory, if not the idea of his teachings being part of the texts found, but certainly his possible connections with the Essene community... so now im a little confused, all very bizzare, btu i did enjoy the lecture... :)

i dunno, im at a very bizzare point at the moment... i need to make some choices, and i cant make them and then go down the path i want to choose alone... im too tired to write more now, as tris has taken me since 1.50 to write and its now 2.20 ish.. (have been checking email as well.... )
so ill bid you goodnight.
sara

are my posts really shallow??

this question is bugging me a lot

okay- SPAIN IS booked!
some point later ill post the itinery of travel... like i did when i went to weymouth...

i really shouldnt be posting now, i should be in the shower, but theres a queue this morning... i need to be at uni in 45 minutes, and i think i have everything..... - phone, wallet, train tickets, tickets for the studio, my map of what we need to do to get there etc... work, cdplayer and CD's, phone, keys... cant think of anything else... i had it all packed last night, sorted out my clothing for today and stuff so i could get up and go to prayers this morning in this hour, but then it took me to half one to actually /sort/ out myt stuff, so i woke up at quarter to eight and was bomboozled...

i dont have too much to post today as nothing has happened yet... and i know i still haven't written the huge post that is looming ominously in the distance.... maybe tonight when i get back, but for now have a good day y'all, and take care... london is going to be interesting...

work was good... 15 9 year olds from a school on the wybourn for an hour of fun and games... went round to see my nan for the first time in 2 and a half years as well, seeing as she was just round the corner... it was okay, even if she did fuss hugely over the fact that i wasnt wearing a coat and wasnt hugely hungry... :S

work confirmed the time off i want today and so thats all good, just texted grandparents to ensure everything is ok, and will pay for the tickets when i hear back... for now, im going to go to bed though- did want to write a longer post but... :S oh well...
maybe tomorrow while im waiting for paul...

sarA
x

well... lectures didnt happen... i ahve been workign though, so its not been a waste of time by any means, and also been chatting to Jo Godfrey across MSN so thats been really cool.... and now i need to get ready for work...

good morning y'all...
was anyone else REALLY cold last night... i woke up like loads... which wouldnt have been as much of an issue but for the fact that i didnt get home until nearly 1am last night, and didnt get to bed till gone 3 and got up at quarter to eight , so waking up four or five times was actually an issue..

reading yesterdays post... sounded like i was putting uni further down my list of priorities than i do... not the case...just got distracted and didnt say what i was going to, even though id already started writing it.. :S

a lot to think about at the moment, which is kinda cool.. i got 5 hours on a train tomorrow so plenty of time...

i know ive kinda gone back to being cryptic - made a huge post last night to my LJ though..


however, having just worked out my finances for this lot of loan it turns out that im in a slightly better position than i thought i would be...
my wages this month will cover my travel to spain and the remainging money im owed for evanescence tickets will go towards money while im out there... gonna take 120 euros with me which is around 80 quid
and minus projected monthly expenditure on rent and bills i have 60 pounds a month to live on- which is doable- it will be a little more as im away for a fair bit of June, and plus ill hopefully have done more work as well, but i dunno what my wages will be- can project at 50 quid a month realistically probably...and then any more is to be saved...
so its plenty... thats good...

guess where i am?

yep.. im actually at uni...
hehe i came here for a break before heading back down to philly...
my loan has finally come through now praise the lord, so i have credit on my phone, and i could buy some tea.

today ive been not doing my essya... but more importantly ive been at philly giving Rich a hand with the admin and stuff, which was great, loved doing it... also got a call from work- im working tomorrow which is nice- can use the money at the moment... and paul got in touch to say that wednesday may not run as smoothly as we'd hoped but im still confident.

also had a bizarre experience today- this afternoon the girl opposite and i kept looking knowingly at one another with the whole "where have i seen you before?" face, and we chatted - turned out that like 10 years ago, we were in the recorder consort together, and i was in choir with 2 of her brothers.... how random but very cool :)
whilst we were talking.. i mean... working ;-) there was an immense thuderstorm going on outside which was fantastic, but i think it had scared baby Emily a little...

im having a huge rethink about what im gonna do after uni.. i had it all planned, but now im not so sure that its right....
also came to a couple of stark realisations with regards to uni and its effect on me which is good to know but not amazing...
might post more about that later (on my livejournal account friends only - which if you know me and want to read let me know and ill give you the password)

well, the bbq was very nice... i think it can be deemed a success..... TK, Chris and Jack were the fortunates involved along with myself... Paul had managed to double book himself so him and Gina couldn't make it... had the most gorgeous chicken along with some yummy sausages and vegetable kebabs (the chilis in it were interesting... :S)... lesson of the day... do not place your hands anywhere in the vicinity of your face when you have touched chilis...
we also played rapidough - which is basically pictionary but with playdough - it is SO much fun!!!
some fantastic quotes from tonight.... have forgotten some of them but... i really enjoyed myself other than one 5 minute period, but compared with a fantastic 4 hours you know... :)

trying to light the BBQ int he rain was good though... :)

anyhows, bedwards for me i think, as i need to be up in the morning... long day- going into philly to help rich r, and then essays for the day at uni methinks...

i love my friends... the bbq is great... here's Jack...

greetings minions of sara. i am jack almighty, god of biscuits. perhaps. hello to all and sundry who may read this.
jack

just watched X-men... :)
i like that film :)

my room looks rather bare now... ive had a real tidy up... my right wrist is totally screwed now... back to dislocating at will... which at the moment its out of place and hurting lots, so im going to strap it up in a minute before i go to sleep... im typing left handed at the moment, which takes a little longer than both handed but is going to help...
with that, im quite glad that im just singing tomorrow morning now... speaking of which, i do need to be in bed by 12, so i can get 7hours of rest... 5 hours of sleep is fine, but i could use the rest.. specially as i have a long day ahead tomorrow... and with that... i need to put the washing i need to wear tomorrow thats wet on the radiator...
arg.. :)

okay.... my top 10 favourite places in sheffield.....

1. the bole hills.....

right next door to me at the moment, i will miss them when i have departed this house... many an hour has been spent there for so many reasons.... (including one of the only two times i ever skived off school (it was a physics lesson at a level))
also written a fair bit out there.... truly inspiring...

2. floor 11/12 of the arts tower... i love sitting up there and just watching over the city... the view is completely different from both my current house, and my parents house, and i cant really describe what i like about it so much but i do....

3. F.O.B.
even back in the days of it being the inferior coffee revolution (i was an eccy road girl went there since that one opened, and it was just nicer than the one in town) its where you'll find me if im not very happy, in a mood to write, treat someone, or if its raining....

4. Chelsea Park,
harking back to my days at the King's Centre here, but this place is a great place to sit/walk through/ or remenisce about old times... KC youth were the first real friends i ever had.... took 14 years to get there, and even though there were some bad times, there were a heck of a lot of good ones.... :)

5. 4 lydgate court
home to jack chris, TK, and Christine, lots of time is spent there... a home away from home....

6. Bolsterstones/Midhopestones
both of these places are fantastic... elevated above the north side of the city, climbing the hill to reach one, you can see sheffield in one direction and manchester in the other....
the other place has a fantastic old church which is great for wandering around on a warm day... also because theyre nice quiet villages its unlikely you'll get too disturbed...

7. Peace Gardens/Winter Gardens...
which depends on the weather outside at the time... i do really enjoy spending time in both of them, and i always used to go sit in thepeace gardens when i was living with my parents and had missed the bus home- id get half an hour sitting out on the grass, or nipping to somerfields to get some ice cream on a hot dya.... i have yet to run through the fountains, but i will.... :D

8. London Road...
As close as i come to actually enjoying shopping... the mix of computer shops and music shops makes it fantastic to wander down and think/plan world domination/windowshop...

9. the round walk.
having lived not too far away from it for a very long time, and having done the endcliffe to graves parks stretch of it several times as a sponsered walk... its almost a surprising one, but i do enjoy walking this one...... i can go onto autopilot and just walk it, and think/revise/think/talk , also had some great conversations with people on this route...

10. the 201 bus
this is a little bit of a skank, but i do LOVE getting this bus if i have time to spare and i want to read/ see a great view/get to meadowhell/get home from meadowhell/go to bolsterstones/midhopestones/hillsborough/stocksbridge/chapeltown/firthpark

well, ive had a really nice day today... i tidied up, did some work, organised tomorrow, had a nice long conversation with chris, spoke to jack on the telephone, did a load of washing... just invited my dad and mick to the bbq, - i really hope that they come actually.. but im doubtful that they will... but hey.. it was the thought...
now im just chillin... might watch a film tonight... early night though, as i have kidz church tomorrow so whatever happens needs to be low key...

might post later... hope you're all feeling loved, now that im back and posting (gotta love changing my browser for making blogger work)

sara
x

K this is the COMPLETE list of my top 10 most significant places in childhood in sheffield... ill go with all time soon ish....

im sure the loyal few reading this will be um.... ecstatic...... c'mon guys join in- comment - i hate talking to myself....

anyhow, i will join in with Ruth's fantastic idea and list my top 10 places in Sheffield.... there may end up being more than 10, and they are in no particular order other than possibly journey... !

might actually do 10 childhood and 10 all time... cause some /will/ be in my top 10 just not necessarily yet!

soto begin with:

the chiddler ones!

1. 101 hazelbarrow crescent.
what can i say- i spent 14 years of my life here! the games of 'pitfall' enjoyed by myself and my cousin as we climbed the stairs/railings/porches/windowsills/washing poles/fences surrounding.... the cockateel incident.... the lightning strike.... the cabin bed....

2. the bomb crater
yup.... i had a real life WWII bomb crater very close to me growing up - we used to go into the woods to head down there for all kinds of tomboyish activities, and picking of elderberries to make wine in the right seasons... the journey there was always memorable... if we werent traffic dodging it would be really muddy, if it wasnt really muddy it would be scorching hot, and the grass snakes would be out on the paths... or we'd be being shot at by the farmer (who was insane), or we'd be forced to run and hide from the guys on dirt bikes...

3. the stone horse on the school playground (and the tunnel in the hill)
my primary school was across the road from my house, so i would be allowed to go play there, but if i was pissed off with life id go and sit on the horse in the infant yard. if i was hiding id go sit in the tunnel in the hill...two of my teeth are still on that hill...... i never did find them...

4. jordanthorpe playground
one of my best scars came from that playground....

5. 7 whinacre walk
moved here just as i was turning 13/14... the inflatable chair... (that my dad has now, abbie, "i cost 95p boys!" bell!)
the birthday explosions, andy tiffen breaking the hammer..... chris butt taking 4 hours to get to my house... :S

6. meadowhead school
with all my form bases etc, obviously a significant part of my life... so much happened here....
but for now ill stick to mentioning, the productions, the salmon pink drama studio, mr haddrell's cupboard... the pole/mic stand dancing incident... :S murderous psychopaths (all me at GCSE productions), emanon, spotlight, ROA, mr fritzler, softball, SCOOP DA BAWL!!!...... "hiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"....... "FIVE-OH!!!!!" our form room fire.... mr harrison..., howsey...., mr mcewan and the english lessons on the field... mr "aim for my head" vardy and the discus.... ilam... mrs N.... a lot of that will sound like nonsense but anyone who was there, or has heard tell of any of the above events will know what im saying...

7. the number 2
the greatest bus ever- it took me everywhere i needed to be, except to my house! and if i had the time to kill, id walk down through graves park to woodseats to get this baby to school in the 6th form days.... otherwise, id get it home from school, and enjoy the journey.... fantastic for sitting and thinking on....

8. padley gorge
this could technically be argued against as its not strictly sheffield, but 4 of my other places are technically in derbyshire so........
yes... this fantastic place.... the only place in the peaks i had the courage to walk to/at by myself before i turned 17... now... well... some of us know about my little trip to mam tor last autumn :D

9. carver st methodist church halls
behind the CLC in town, every tuesday (and the odd monday) for 10+ years, id come here for practices as a member of the City of Sheffield Young Choirs, progressing up the ranks from the junior choir era with mrs Cowen, and "i am a small part of the world" (my 1st solo in the choir aged 9 at a packed octogon) into the intermediates, during the pike era.... (eugh) and then into the Nimmo rule of things :D and Senior choir... i do miss it - im gonna go gatecrash on monday i think...

10. Tapton School
being my most significant childhood haunts... its only fair that tapton gets a mention.... it was actually a toss up between this and Bannerdale....


when ive got a bit more time then i will do my 10 FAVOURITE places in sheffield..... a totally different list...

k, done it!!!!

id quite like to get a new template for this too at some point, but i really dont like any of the standard ones.... so it will be like this till at least the end of exams now...

im really on a retro trip with music at the moment, as can be seen no doubt by looking at what im listening to.....

the only thing that is possibly misrepresented there is my love for savage garden at the moment...
but for now before i go play some theme hospital, one of my favourite lyrics at the moment....

"gimmee the beat boys, and free my soul
i wanna get lost in your rock n roll
and drift away.... "

so yeah... i went to bed around 4am in the end....

i got back in last night around 1am having done the cinema and sorting out details of bbq with chris and TK to find the house full of randoms due to a trip out that went wrong or something... kinda interesting...
today i MUST get some serious work done, as tomorrow ive got kids stuff at churchin the morning, the afternoon sorting out the barbie, the evening having the barbie, and then sunday night is gonna be a marathon work night i think... the liberation theology essay will get done then i think, which means the late one will be done today... its only 1250 words so i should be okay...

for now, im gonna overhaul some bits of this blog that have been left unattended for a while.... ie the music and stuff....
im not going to add a film section in, as whilst i see enough to do that, i tend to just post that ive seen it and comment if i think its worthy of commenting...

at some point the uni essays will go up so if anyone would like to read some 'interesting' insights/bullshite into all things biblical (not being blasphemous- there are just certain things that i have to state in essays that i think are utter crap) then they will be there, - the link will appear when thats the case...
will post back when its done...

as posted in the comments for the post below......
the lesson for yesterday was indeed- dont drink wine on an empty stomach... especially if you dont normally drink much wine!!!!!!
i would have posted that here but i couldnt get onto this page to blog this morning so i thought id best do it before i went out....

todays lesson is "dont lay in grass when you are allergic to it"

i went out as i had to go to town to transfer some money to ensure i could pay the direct debit due on the 25th and then as it was a really nice day i decided to go sit in crookes valley park for a little while... which turned into a good two hours as i was invited to the cinema... which i duly accepted... we saw hidalgo and kill bill vol.2
i preferred the latter of the 2 films, but there were some good moments in hidalgo.

also arranged a bbq for sunday evening which will be nice... just hope ive got my work done by then!!!!

as its almost 2 am im gonna sign off for now i think and try get some sleep...
its nice to be back on here though...
sara

dammit....
i drank it all... this is the drunkest ive ever been..... :S

arg... i get back from stomp off the bus, poor, feeling hungry and walk home to the tantalising smell of bbq, hoping that is isnt coming from our house... walk up the passage.... to find the bbq on........... :(
it is the perfect day for one and muggins here is obviously poor. really fancy some shandy but im too tired to go spend my last 1.00 to go get some, so im not complaing about that.... im not really complaining about anything to be fair... but grrr!
my loan should be here on monday now so not too long to wait... im really hoping it arrives tomorrow to be honest so i dont have to walk to the cinema if i want to see kill bill2 with TK and chris.... (still need to watch the first one)

maybe its time to open the bottle of wine.... ?

update... i opened the bottle of wine... :D
call me a wino if you like... :D
lol


nice dry white south african.... half the bottle gone.. going to get some food now... :S
obv im not slaughtered as i can still spell and type :D

okay, time for a vaguely proper update methinks...... ive been fairly quiet on here of late - a lot of this is because ive been fairly quiet full stop - another part of this is because ive been posting to livejournal a fair bit as its been much more reliable...
so... right now i should be getting ready for work but they rang and cancelled on me, so i have a bit extra free time, which means i can have an extra look over the STOMP notes for this evening..
so what have i been upto??
well other than the usual uni work i have my job... should get paid 70-90 quid for this month which isnt much by some standards admittedly, but it helps.
i have a new guitar... hopefully i will be able to get my other one mended sometime in the near future, but for now, i have a replacement, so its good there...

ive got almost a 1000 point army painted and done in a colour scheme i invented for my chaos marines, so by the time ive armoured my lord and my tank it will be there and we can have some decent 4-way battles, as mine will pass for tzeench thus all four chaos gods are represented, even though they're actually undivided... but hey :) a wing for one of my furies is however out of reach at the moment, being behind the wardrobe... but ill find it soon... :)

the house hunt continues, and will be stepped up a pace with the return of the jack, who is a stand in for rosie, it all needs sorting in the next month as i am going to be away for a lot of june.....

exams are beginning to loom, as are huge essays that need doing throughout may, with the packing, and everything... :S its going to be an interesting month indeed....

im currently listening to some old music... like early 1990's :D
i went on a retro trip... and gfot hold of all the music from the 90's i liked, seeing as all my music is generally new or 70's/80's....

on the music front, im going to see evanescence in may, which will be cool....

so yeah... theres a quicky on the old me front...

how are you???

answers in the comments please...

sara
x

yey.... and it all starts again..
blood tests next friday...........

what decade does your personality live in?


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[three words that sum you up]: random, stupid, stubborn
[jewelry worn daily]: used to be my celtic cross, now its my african beads... just cause i changed necklace lol
[wallet]: my navy quiksilver one
[coffee]: where?! :D
[shoes]: i have my ART trainers (burgundy with light blue), my black and orange quiksilver trainers, and my (soon to be) black knee high boots
[cologne/perfume]: fleur
[clothing you have on]: my black combats, and black vest top... (see the theme emerging here?

—MIXED QUESTIONS—
[wishing]: if i told you id have to kill you.....
[after this]: prolly carry on with what im doing, and play heroes of might and magic till the wee hours...
[talking to]: hefelumpman, and winterlight (redeemedtears) on msn... being talked at by someone else
[eating]: just eaten some mandarins and a banana
[fetishes]: none im willing to confess to (and that DOESNT mean i have some weirdshit ones... just a girl has to have *some* secrets)
[some favorite movies]: the green mile, LOTR, stand by me.
[something you're looking forward to]: nothing at the moment,
[last thing you ate]: see above
[something you’re afraid of]: being abandoned by my friends and dying alone
[if you could have any animal as a pet]: a wolf/husky, dragon,
[cities you wouldn’t mind moving too]: we all know about my log cabin in canada... new zealand would be cool... or ill just settle for anywhere where i have friends (preferably sharing a house with them too)
[some favorite foods]: chinese...
[something -or someone- you wish you could understand better]: me... why people hate me, or suddenly take a strong dislike to me
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time]: i dont get this question... caourse i miss people///

—DO YOU..—
[like candles]: YES... (400+ at the moment )
[like company]: my friends always... still like a bit of time to myself though...
[believe in soul mates]: kind of... it long and complicated but if you want to know, then ask.
[believe in love at first sight]: yes, unfortunately *sigh*
[believe in forgiveness]: yeah... only so far though.. which i know is bad.. but im not perfect..
[want to get married]: my answer to this used to be a huge NO - but now.... i kinda do... :(
[want to have kids]: if the above were to happen and the guy was perfect for me, then maybe.. i dont know right now.
[ever want to adopt kids]: possibly, but i have to make it to 35 first...

—IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...—
[cried]: no- which is great!
[bought something]: yes... some bananas and mandarins... how exciting eh?
[gotten sick]: not in a conventional way...
[sang]: YEAHY!
[eaten]: fruity goodness...
[been kissed]: um... i havent been kissed in over 26months AT ALL... so no.
[felt stupid]: i feel stupid all the time... next question?
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: no i havent... dont want to screw up my life more than it is already thnakyew
[talked to an ex]: only having hte one... no.
[talked to someone you have a crush on]: no i havent... but i should just get over it anyway
[had a serious talk]: yeah, not in person, but yeah./..
[missed someone]: a lot of people, and a lot of things :(
[hugged someone]: unfortunately no... i feel neglected...
[argued with a parent(s)]: nope... not beign in close proximity to them or having spoken to them helps there...
[dreamt about someone you can't be with]: possibly..... not sure there...

—SOCIAL LIFE—
[best girl friend(s)]: abbie
[best guy friend(s)]: jack, paul, hendryx
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: none...
[hobbies]: we all know mine..
[pager/cell]: i have a mobile phone...
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: Friends
[job]: I'm a student :D
[attend church]: i do
[like being around people]: Depends on the people.


A - Age: 20

B - Band listening to right now: bruce sprinsteen

C - Career future: teaching for a bit, then hopefully opening my recording studio

D - Dad's name: keith

E - Easiest person to talk to: bruce (my teddy bear)

F - Favorite song: erk.. cant answer that

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: bears....

H - Hometown: sheffield

I - Instruments: Guitar flute voice clarinet bit of keys, bit of drums, glock, bass, zither, pan pipes, percussion violin (a little)

J - Job: teaching sports to kids

K - Kids: none

L - Longest car ride ever: longest road journey was 20 hours...

M - Mom's name: denise

N - No. of people you've slapped in the face: 3

P - Phobia[s]: a bit clustrophobic, am quite ochlophobic and i ahve a huge fear of being left alone
Q - Quote: "give a man a fire and he'll be warm for a day, set a man on fire and he'll be warm the rest of his life" - jingo (terry pratchett)

R - Reason to smile: lacking at the moment.

S - Song you sang last: probably something evanescencey or alanisy

T - Time you wake up: today...10.37:S

U - Unknown fact about me: there are many...

V - Vegetables you hate: Aubergines, butternut squash,

W - Worst habit: being paranoid and unsociable

X - X-rays you've had: My head, foot, arm, knee, small intestine

Y - Yummy food: something ive cooked probably..

Z - Zodiac sign: scorpio

too many questions, not enough answers.